A Lot To Say

I've had a lot to say but the words have never really come out.

But let me just say one thing,

I live a life dreaming about the life I want to live

but to tell you the truth

I'm not living anymore.

I'm just sleeping between dreams of endless nights,

waiting for time to hopefully fit it in.

I think I'm scared to show the world my dreams

but I'm really just scared to show them me.

That this crazy girl actually knows a thing about humanity.

That this outgoing girl sometimes screams the most silent screams.

That this girl feels so selfish when she feels her pain because she knows others have it worse and to compare it she has gravel thrown at her and they have stones.

But as John Green quotes pain demands to be felt.

And we demand to be herd.

The thing I forget most though is that God can hear me, He hears my dreams and my fears, he hears my silent screams and my negativity. It doesn't matter what anyone else thinks of me, because God loves me, God takes care of me and that's all I need; that's all that matters.

You may be thinking that I'm just lucky, but I'm not lucky, I'm changed. I was an injured soldier limping my way across the battlefield. Dodging bullets and bombs but I still got hurt.

God picked me up and carried me across the field, walking through fire to get me to safety and recovery.

He can do that to you too, just ask him to. Don't just ask, have faith in him because faith is seeing the light with your heart when your eyes can not see from the darkness.

You want to know something?

That light will lead you on the journey to recovery.